Gray Area

There's a part of life that, no matter how I chase, will never truly understand.
Is that supposed to be sad?
Looking at how almost everyone is able to have it, even taking it for granted, but I will never obtain it.

I used to have it. Used to. I guess I took it for granted as well.
In a split second I lost it. It slipped right out of my fingers.

I didn't understand what it meant though, the moment that I lost it.
Then all at once, everything hit me.
It's never coming back, never again shall I experience it.

Do I envy others?
As much as I deny, there's no way to hide.
But one must face reality.
The saddest part is that, only a rare few will understand;
& I can only feel this sadness alone.


S.